01 Jun

The GUILT of Pursuing a Dream

The Paisley Fish's Long Term Goals

Guilt? What is this CrAzY lady talking about?

For the last two months I have been GLASSING MY FACE OFF. I quit the full time shipping job I had to go after something passionate in my life. Stained Glass. Yup, I walked away from a full time, with benefits, well paying, industrial job to try my hand at being an artist. <— This is where the guilt comes in.

I have been CONSTANTLY fighting my brain space about this decision. An artist? You aren’t saving the world! You aren’t putting enough into society! This is selfish! You won’t make enough money! YOU AREN’T GOOD ENOUGH. 

And you know what we need to do about these thoughts?

FIGHT THEM.

Going after a dream was never going to be easy, but if you can believe in impossible things, you can succeed at anything.  It’s important to not let the negativity win. It’s a battle everyone faces every morning they wake up.

And hey, you might fail the first time! How many times did Donald Trump go bankrupt before he MADE it? 4 Times. Just don’t give up, little duck!

Speak only what you WANT to be Truth.

Stop with the negativity because WORDS ARE POWERFUL! Want proof? Check out Danielle Laporte’s experiment on the impact of positive and negative words. The results are incredible, moving, uplifting, amazing. She’s a real positive lady.

Danielle LaPorte's Positivity Experiment

“You can fail at what you don’t want, so you might as well take a chance on doing what you love.”

My favorite graduation speech is from Jim Carrey. Here’s a short clip from it. It’s inspiring to say the least. GO AFTER WHAT YOU LOVE. JUST TRY. Do not be afraid of failure because FAILURE IS NOT THE END. Failure is another beginning. Everything you do will make you smarter and get you closer to your ultimate goal. What worked, what didn’t? How can you make it work the next time? Was this what I wanted to do anyway? Don’t immerse yourself in the fact that it did not work! What did you learn?

Inspiration on Not Giving Up has been thrown at me all month. The universe believes in me, I believe that because it would not continue to put inspiring people in my life.

My friend John Skinkis has been a great friend and an inspiring individual to me and every person he encounters. Though he comes from a small tiny farming community, he is going to do big things. This is a truth because John BELIEVES it to be true. I recently had a great ‘catch up’ conversation with him. He inspired me to work hard and find my passion so that I can focus on it.

Some advice from John:

GIVE YOURSELF SPECIFIC GOALS – You can’t say “I want to be successful” and expect gold to rain from the sky. You need to go after something. This was where my big problem was coming from. I couldn’t figure out where to focus. After speaking with John, I cried for 3 days. I was so frustrated  at myself, at the world, at my bank account, and at John. I was so mad at him for stirring this up in me. But you know what? Moving forward is painful sometimes. This frustration was my fuel and I began making my plan.

When you want to Succeed as Bad as you want to Breathe

John listens to this video EVERY DAY. To remind himself. This was the question I needed to ask myself: What did I want as bad as I wanted to breathe? For me, it’s not millions of dollars. It’s comfort. It’s a family. It’s being able to wake up every day and do something that I love. It’s using my craft to create Joy. 

So I made myself THIS to remind me:

The Paisley Fish's Long Term Goals

The Paisley Fish’s Long Term Goals

Get the tutorial for this magnet board, by me, here. 

I’m not saying that I have “MADE IT” as an artist, but I did get my art into a gallery… and that’s one step in the right direction. My next post will be about my new glass and such. I did update my portfolio and glass art, so check those out!

This post was more for me, than anyone out there. It was a reminder for me that I know all these truths and I have to keep remembering to believe them.

Happy Crafting!